2003-04-07 - 3:10 a.m.

Wow. What a wonderful surprise. The other night I drunkenly told Aisha about my diary. Tonight she found it. She called me at 2 in the morning distressed. She wasn't happy about some of the stuff that i wrote. Its understandable. But I wanted clarification on a lot of stuff. She was hurt by what I said my friend's opinions were. I respect my friends but that doesn't mean I completely agree with them. Sure, I know i should watch out to protect myself, but if marco polo never would have went East then the world wouldn't have fireworks, kites, and Spaghetti. Do you see what I'm saying. The A in Aisha stands for adventure and I sense that, that is why i'm attracted to her. Aisha clarified her feelings and about who she is and why she does what she does. I understand her, not completely - but enough to be able to learn. We're going to give it a go at being friends. That's fine by me seeing as i liked talking to her before we ever did anything physical. I know that this may upsetting for some of my friends but if we all tried o be a little more accepting the world would be a better place. Eh gads - what a hippie comment that was. I don't know... can't we all just get a long. I'll change the subject.

It was nice for aisha to call. On writeclub.net i tell people to call me at any hour. She's the only one that really pays attention to what i write on writeclub.net I don't know about her reading my diary because i write late at night and inebriated a lot of the time so sometimes I ramble. I hope that she sees me more than just a horny lonely fuck - I'm not saying that i'm not - but I genuinely am interested in her. i know she's for years younger than I am, but what difference does that really make. As she points out - we're both freshmen.

She talks about her trip to Seattle where she drank Chardenay in the bathroom with bisexual girls and watched cartoons with autistic genius teenage boys.

I told her about my crazy evening with Chris and Dan. We talked about being the odd ones out. I want to be her to be comfortable with me. I know that's a lot to ask because I'm an intense guy. My honesty knocks the wind out of people and its hard for them to keep up, but she's very forthright and that's another reason why i am attracted to her.

We're the odd ones out - maybe one day we could be odd together.

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