2003-04-24 - 12:07 p.m.

Wednesday I wake in Sacramento. Why do I drive to Sacramento? My car is a good enough place to sleep. I walk outside and I’m in a good mood. I’m supposed to be on Dr. Andy’s Poetry and technology hour and I’m planning on going to the reading at Delta Venus Tonight. I pick a flower from the rose garden in front of my mother’s house. The rose is bright. It is red and yellow all twisted together like a blended artist pallet on a pedal. It smells like perfume flames. I rest the stem behind my ear. It doesn’t stay that well because the only hair I have on the top of my head is the Mohawk strip down the top of my head.

I drive to Davis listening to KDVS. The fundraiser is one. Adam One, the DJ on air at the moment, will get pummeled by tennis balls if he makes $500 on his show and he’ll take a foot in the balls for $1000. Dr. Andy has asked me to think of something crazy to do. Not too crazy because it is poetry, but something crazy none the less. I think if we make $1000 I’ll read Ginsberg’s “Howl” while only wearing a Speedo on the quad. When I have my show next year I’ll drink my own urine on air if I make a thousand. If it’s good enough for Gandhi its good enough for Rob Roy.

Once in Davis I see Azver on the Quad. I go say hello to him and talk about trivial stuff. There is a big support the troop rally on the quad. I see James over there so I walk into the crowd of Red White and Blue republicans. James stands out in the crowd because of his black shirt and scowl. When the sun is shining James is scowling. His forehead muscles get a lot of exercise in the summer time. I am tempted to take the open mic, but I don’t because I don’t have anything witty to say at the moment. I do see Dr. Andy walk into the M. U. and I rush over to talk about the show. As usual he is a great guy. He wants to plan ahead a little bit but not too much because there is nothing better than live radio. It sounds inspired. It sounds brilliant. It sounds free form. It sounds only like KDVS.

I also run into Sandy and Amanda, two friends that I took a History class with Fall Quarter. I met Amanda at the summer orientation sessions. She mentioned that she was Christian way back then I asked what that meant because she seemed like she wasn’t too reserved. She goes to church and I can respect that. It was good to know that she was an honest church go-er so I need not pursue her. I like it when women tell me they either have boyfriends or are a friend of Jesus before I get my hopes up. Sandy and many are punk rock Christian Republicans, but I get along with them. I get along with James because we all have open minds and can agree to disagree.

At the row of speakers is Zachary Amendt. He writes the Conservative Column for the Aggie and I hear for my friend Jenn that he is an ass. In his e-mails he doesn’t seem like that bad of person but you can’t tell much about a person from what they write. Or can you? What do you think of me? Sing my guestbook and tell me if you think I am an ass.

I then go sit down on the quad. James sits for a little bit but then runs off to go down to the Aggie to inform the Campus Community via newsprint about the movie showing Thursday night. I see him walking with a girl. It is nice to see jams getting over Annaliese. Like I have said before, I want everyone I know to be somewhat content in their life. As it is now I see many friends getting happier as the days go by. I may be closer to finding a certain kind of happiness in a person that I’ve been interested in, but that will come later.

Aisha comes up and we talk about a lot of stuff. She made out with a friend of hers the night before. She doesn’t want to date him, but she confessed to me that she was drunk and lonely. Drunken loneliness seems to be the only was that I can spend any quality time with a woman. The last two women that I have kissed have been drunk. Unfortunately the girl that I have just resumed perusing doesn’t drink, but that may be good for me.

I talk to Aisha ability physical closeness with a person. About loneliness. I understand loneliness. I am but one man so I know all about loneliness.

We start talking about arrogance at one point. I talk about the Aggia article that made me look like an arrogant prick. She said that I have something to be arrogant about, whatever that means.

We talk about the magazine we will put together. I come up with a name that I will not divulge but it is a great name for a free magazine.

We talk about womanizing. I am a horrible womanizer, by that I don’t mean that I am horrible because do it, but rather that I am horrible at doing it. To be honest I’m too sensitive and too monogamous. I have a hard time juggling women. I have to work on one woman at a time even when I’m just pursuing them. That works against me because I lose too many opportunities. Until I fool one woman into calling herself my girlfriend.

When talking about womanizing at UC Davis we must talk about Mischa Pollack. Aisha knows Mischa from theatre. Then Vickie shows up. She knows Mischa because he used to date Lisa, her roommate. Then Geoff walks by, he is one of Mischa’s best friends. We all talk about how he love and hate the guy. He is a womanizer because he is always flirting and hugging, and somehow he gets away with his arrogance. geoff says that Mischa gets away with arroagnce because he has the right to be arrogant." I totally agree. When I asked Vickie what she though about him she said, “He’s a bastard. But I love him.” That tells you all you need to know. But the problem with him is that women see through his shit. They won’t date him because he is everywhere. Women want men more focused. On them. Only them. Not all the time. But enough. OHhhhhhh the balance of love. Stand on the fence – trip- and bust your balls.

Vickie talks about making some pot brownies right after the T. A. for poetry class stopped by. I then said, Vickie this is my teacher, Darcy.” Vickie felt embarrassed by her drug reference, but I know that Darcy isn’t averse to drug use. Darcy and I then talked about the poetry scene at Davis, Dr. Andy, and how I would get a magazine class together. She was great help. I like Darcy. She is rather approachable. I think I’m the only student that knows she is only 21. Opps, just told her secret.

I go down to Lower Freeborn hall to KDVS. Which I am now. I must go too class but I will write about my wonderful time with a girl named Jenny later.

A quote from the KDVS fundraiser (11:20 a.m.): Esa walks into the room and says, “Does anyone know if they sell No-dos at the Corral.” That tells you all you need to know about the committed KDVS staff.

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